Drowsy

Can I win this? I say "yes!" Positive thinking all the way. I'm on the verge of getting sick. Of course, I'm sure the fact that both my roommates came back sick from winter break had something to do with it. My throat is a bit itchy and I'm tired even more easily. So I've been downing some Vitamin C tablets, orange juice, and medicine.

So recently, I've been talking about someone a lot lately. I'm sure it has nothing to do with the small crush I have ;-) But the thing is, other people are starting to notice. It's kind of embarrassing considering the situation. Even though it's pretty difficult not to think about him, I haven't talked about him all day today. It's dangerous to keep your heart on your sleeve. It makes you vulnerable. Yesterday, mother encouraged me to find a boyfriend before it's too late. She says she doesn't want to wait for me to be 30 to be married. I don't like it when she speaks in that way. I worry enough about the fleeting years. I can't stand it when they talk about that mortality, just thinking about it is enough to drown me in sadness. I'd like to find him too. But is there really someone for everyone? Then why do people die alone?