Frankster

Frank is going through some serious health problems right now. A lump formed on the back of his neck, which was diagnosed as a blood clot. Ever since the "blood clot," he's been experiencing some pretty dangerous symptoms. In the beginning, he had an episode where he had difficult breathing, in which he fainted shortly after. Since then, he has been having headaches throughout the day. Most recently, he's hands have been twitching. Last night, as he was pulling into the garage, he suddenly was unable to open his eyelids; his mother had to help him park the car. He's been feeling numbness in his face and limbs, and it seems the symptoms are worsening to which each day.

Last night, as we were all going through his, Jessica ended up calling the ambulance to his house. He became very angry, and Jess said, "What am I suppose to do? What am I suppose to do when your hand is twitching?" It was so heartbreaking to watch. I don't think his parents see the seriousness of the situation because he isn't expressing it to them. Jessica is carrying all this burden and it's too much for her to handle. I kept telling her that she did the right thing. I would have done the same thing in her position. This is something you can brush off as nothing. It's no fucking flu. Thank God he reached his garage before he lost the ability to open his eyes and move his hands. What if he was in the freeway or in the middle of driving? Can't his parents see how dangerous this situation is? Poor Jess is worried that Frank is going to die, and she can't understand why his parents aren't doing anything about it. It's a month-long wait to see the neurologist, what are we suppose to do before then?

Blowfish Harnett

New shoes, again!

After searching far and wide (on the internet), I finally found my love, the Blowfish Harnett! I first laid eyes on it during my last trip to DSW, but I didn't buy it because it was not in my size. But I went home, and found it.

I bought these Madden shoes on Ebay. I think I'm going a little bit crazy with shoes.

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Domination

YouTube - kesha tik tok (cover)

This is why I hate the internet, I truly do. There's really no reason why people need to be so mean. The internet makes people feel safe to show their true colors. They can be as cruel as they want and suffer no consequences. It is a hate machine where civility, courtesy, and principles come to die. It truly breaks my heart. Where did 18 years of parenting go?

It is disgusting how people get some kind of sick satisfaction.

"I looked at my life and it will never be as bad as what this girl sees in the mirror." -Fonzie12343

Like, seriously? Did you just say that? I can't fathom how anyone would think it's okay to say something so cruel. The comments about her looks and singing, most people come to the same conclusion. Whether to say anything inappropriate is what separates the douchebags and people who know better. Every time this happens, and it happens quite often, it breaks my heart. How do you defend someone from a mob? How can people attack someone so harmless?

In other news, I played root beer pong with my floor yesterday. Andie and I, the "David Stompers," totally stomped David. We had no intention of winning, and frankly, Andie's confidence was negative if it was possible to have something less than zero confidence. She kept wanting us to leave, but I couldn't understand why she wanted to leave without even trying. I would have been happy if I made just one.

David is someone on our floor who teases Andie a lot. He has played beer pong plenty of times, which is probably why Andie had no confidence. He kept saying how he was going to dominate us, which is why Andie decided on the name "David Stompers" as a joke, even though we didn't expect to win.

It turns out, I have pretty good hand-eye coordination. The "David Stompers" stomped David real good. Andie didn't make any in the beginning, but she was getting better and better. Sometimes she was too nervous, so I coached her through it. It must have been pretty disgusting to watch us play. It was full of, "It's okay, you'll make it next time," "You can do it, I believe in you!" And when we finally won, we were jumping up and down and giving each other double high-fives. Everyone rooted for us because we were the underdogs. They kept explaining these strange rules to us, and I would respond with, "This game is confusing..." *furl brow* My favorite R.A., Omar, was supportive of me, which made me really happy.

"It's okay, Andie, she's got your back."

"Nancy dominates!" x 50 throughout the whole game and the next round, where we lost by 1 cup.

I heart Omar.

Chinese New Year!

Our small family of four gathered for the Chinese New Year's Eve meal. Meals with the brother either turn out really awkward for me, or very, very hilarious. Yesterday, it was the less fun one. He's trying to convince my parents to do the less expensive option of fixing my jaw, which is to not fix it at all. I'm not quite sure how I feel about all this. On one hand, I really want to fix my awkward profile face. But I also don't want to use my parents' money when there's not a lot to go around. I know my parents want to because they adore me to death, but ultimately I get to decide whether to green light it or not. They keep saying like I'm going to pay them back when I become a doctor, something I'm not even sure about anymore. Not because I've lost the passion for medicine or helping people, but because of the cost of medical school and the time it will take to get there. Just thinking about the crazy debt I'll be in already puts me in depression.

And then there's the other thing on my mind. Right now, I feel like everything has led up to this point. When I think about it, it makes so much sense, but to pursue it would be foolish. So all I can do is pursue a future that will kill me for the next decade while hoping that the foolishness I'm working on the side will be my savior. Because of genuine love for the characters and story, I really can't give up. To do so would be to betray myself and all that I am.

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Chinese People Loves Flowers and Fruits

Steve Madden Baby

Went to the orthodontist. I'm high maintenance, it'll cost me near $10,000 to fix me. Left, went to Union Square and saw food. Was in a hurry to go home to study, then, my mom took me to DSW. Huge mistake. When I was in the shoe store, it was like "Fuck UCLA, fuck my midterms. Shoes." I was crazy in there, my mom knows better than to bring me in there again.

Dance Marathon Benefit

Anh is my favorite, marry me. I love Bruin Harmony.

Love his solos.

"Tote Bag" Tote Bag

She's so tired, don't want to wake her up yet for dinner, so I'll just make a short post. Yesterday I made a tote bag with my floor. It's part of the whole green thing, whatever that is. Isn't mine super creative? Andie told me to draw the Louis Vuitton logo on it. I wanted to, but the front side didn't dry so I couldn't.

I'm almost going home soon for Chinese New Year and Single's Awareness day! My second round of midterms are coming up, tears tears.

I hate being team leader, it stresses me out.

I'm super excited for my super secret project. I'm getting a lot of inspiration these days.

My brother send me a link cryingwife.com. Basically, this husband records his super emotional wife watching movies. It's kind of funny to watch. My favorite line so far, "Does R2D2 get put back together?" Haha, adorable. He sent me the link because I'm known to be super emotional too when I'm watching movies. In fact, I was watching Crying Wife watch the ending of LOTR, and when I heard the music and saw that she was crying, I started to cry too. I was crying watching Crying Wife. Pathetic, I know. Someone please bitchslap me back to my mother's womb to get better genes.

Is it that easy to get published?

Thirsty Thursdays! Last Thursday was my first time. It was fun to loosen up. A shot of gin and rum...it was kind of difficult to hide my disgust every time I took a drink. I don't plan to do this very often, but I did do it to see what it was like. I don't ever plan to be drunk in public, it is quite humiliating. I remember the couple people who were seriously drunk and vomiting on themselves totally ruined everybody's mood. I don't know whether we reeked of alcohol when we returned, but my roommate knew. She was overly kind to us, had long talks with her Christian boyfriend outside in the hall, and started pestering Andie to go to church. According to her standards, we are already damned for an eternity in hell, stop trying to save us.

The first chapter of the "Shadow Souls," the new installment of "Vampire Diaries" has been released. I've never even heard of the series until I watched the series on the CW. The first episode was pretty awkward, but it progressed and has improved a lot. I'm hooked! In my quest for more and more spoilers on the upcoming episode, I found myself looking into the original books themselves. It is probably one of those rare instances where the small/big screen portrayal of the story is SO much better than the book. It was awful. I could barely read the first chapter without deciding whether to crack up or turn away in disgust. I thought Stephanie Meyer was bad, but at least she was bearable (almost). These women are so obsessed with beauty and all they do is write about vanity. Would Bella love Edward if he was ugly if ugly vampires were possible? All she really does is obsess about Edward's sparkles and worry about aging. That bitch, I hate her.

I can do better, and I will.

Where's Kanye when you need him?

I just finished watching the highlights of last night's Grammy's. I also spent a buttload of time watching vlogs that ranted about Taylor Swift winning Album of the Year because it calmed me that other people (most) felt the same way. In my world, its almost unfathomable why anyone else by Lady Gaga would win an award that she was nominated in. But to be fair, I would have understood if Black Eyed Peas or Beyonce won, but no, it had to be that teenybopper that sings mediocre music. Sure her songs are fun to sing to, but no one is really a fan, unless you're a tween who still thinks music is about looking pretty. Taylor, seriously, this is called media backlash from overexposure. I'm glad her publicist are getting her off the spotlight, I've sure had enough of her. She should be thankful she didn't win more Grammy's. That poor girl couldn't handle all the criticism. I'm sure I'm not the only one who wished Kanye was drunk at an award show again.

And seriously Taylor, can you stop acting surprised every time you win something. I mean, you've already won a bunch. If you keep doing this, people might actually realize you're faking it. Oh wait, they already do.